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Saturday, February 9th, 2008
9:06 pm	Faith.Love.Hope #1 UNTITLED by Justin Mitchell Walking down these narrow streets I'm all alone, hands in my pockets. Wait is it a voice i hear? Its so close, its drawing very near. It speaks to me Your not good enough for them It says with anger in ts tone Its frighting yet warm and soothing Why do you bother to be like them As it seems to question my exisitance Your not like them at all, they all hate you This voice its becoming familiar They'll never accept you for who you are It says, the voice is so clear as if it was in my head I fall to my knees and scream allowed No you lie go away somebody save me The voice its seems to be dragging me Dragging me into a place I've been before I remember this place, its cold and very lonely hear Its dark, I stand up and start walking The voice continues to pummel me With all the hate and doubt Of a toretured soul thats be through so much I start feeling this great hatred for everything around me Wait, theres another voice now Its sounds like its contradicting the other one You've been accept by these people they love you They need you to be they strength as well as their friend The voice said in a very angelic almost loving tone I look around me seeing nothing but this Dark dismal place full of hatred and fear I shout out "hello who are you? where are you?" The voice seems to be gone now I start running away from the horrible place I'm in Only to realize I'm not going anywhere at all I fall to my knees again, I cry, I'm alone with nothing Stand with me, the voice becomes me towards it I won't let them hurt you, ill be here with loving arms I stand and reach out my hand, A peircing light runs straight threw the darkness A hand grabs mine and i seem to float I float towards this figure of love My eyes open, and i look up There she is, in all of her glory My angel the one who delivered me The one who brought me back The tender heart of one so pure The tender love of one so true (Comment on this)
Monday, November 26th, 2007
7:33 pm	Give It Up Child Theres Nothing Here For You Okay ill drag my ass and hope to get by in my miserable existance im kinda feeling like crap got rejected twice this month dont really wanna go for three but i really like Kayla too bad tho she only like skinny chizzeled guys the are"hot" shes not shallow but shes just kinda ned to figure out that there is more then just skinny losers who r gonna treat her like nothing i hated when she was cryin bout that stupid thing with Johnny i wanted to kick his ass for hurtin her even tho i have no clam on her i just felt like i needed to protect her from jerks like him. I unno apperently friday the girls were talking bout "how cute its was i wa holding Kaylas hands, and i bought her a water blah blah blah".....honestly its a very one sided crush oh well im used to that dont bother me i was gonna ask Kayla to Semi-Formal....but ive had second thoughts bout it so i dont think i will ne more nothing todo with her i just feel akward i unno i mean i guess i like her more the i thought seein as how most of this is bout her but still im just not gonna tellz her bout ne of this ever not how much i like her*even tho she knows* im just gonna keep to my person andnever say nothin bout ne thing to her if she ass what i wanted to talk to her bout ill just be all like oh um nvm it wasnt really important seee yea arpun bye ...something like that ill never tell her i like her or that i want to go to semi with her... im a loser and a coward but hey whatever i dont care.. Melody pissed me off royally today she told me someting bout Kim then i told Kim bout it Kim confronted her um she blamed me then i punched a wall Now shes all fuckin bringin up the past and is getting jelous becuz i like another girl well the princess cant have everything she wants especially not e i dont feel that way for her she huurt me wwwwaaaaaayyyyy too much cheated on me with my best friend um dated another guy while i was dating her i dont think we are ever gettingback together....ever o and i dont give a fuck bout neone thinking im an asshole honestly ive had a worse time of shit this year alone becuz of shit shes started (Comment on this)
Monday, October 29th, 2007
10:17 pm	hmm Pretty Sure I HATE My Feelings okie so lets see i joined this site called my yearbook tons o hot chicks on there 494 of which think im cute 494 of witch i dont care because it gives me a false sense of feeling good like im impressed that many girls like me/secretly admire me but its kinda depressing seeing as how i want none of them i mean there are some pretty hot chicks on there but it dont matter to me cuz i seriously have this stupidly pointless crush which i kow prolly wont go ne where and i never really talk to her bout it i kinda ethier joke away from it or just say nothing bout it and change the subject right away so i hate my feelings cuz today she hugged me really tight i felt like i wa gonna pop but i didnt care cuz i didnt really want her to let go they were actually the tightest someone has really ever held me hehe but um neways so yea my teamwon at the moive trivia today it was fuckin awsome i got this werid effin cup everyone kept tellin me to turn into a bong *not happening btw* so lets see recap i like a girl which ill never get as far as i know cuz im a geek like serious i may not seem it i definately am so lets see tightest ever held, like a girl which ive stated in the lat fuckin 3 entrys um i guess im pickin up my writing again woot woot my halloween party wensday um so that pretty much it hopeless loser searching for love where it cant be found *um as far as i know lol* gah but no wrrys viewers something goods gotta happen to me soon right lol ne ways im out for another day tty another day night P.S. Ive got a pretty good chours for a song but need lyrics ill keep u posted viewers later days Current Mood: blah Current Music: Hand Of Sorrow - Within Temptaion (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 28th, 2007
10:09 pm	And The Loser Is.....ME! im pretty sure its just a crush right ... ha just a silly crush thatll go away but i dont want it to well i do but yet i dont i unno its confusing cuz i know i have no shot in hell but hey thats why there called crushes right they hurt like hell and they r sometimes controlling but its all good gha okie this is gonna be alotta feeling then im gonna recap my day okie so this summer at summr school this girl added me to facebook didnt really know who she was except we kept running into each other in th hall *was kinda fun i did it once purposely* ne ways this year *september* find out shes friends with my ex so i say how bad could that be right wrong its horrible cuz now i like her and its completely hopeless cuz like shelike another one of my friends and ill never tell her how amazing i think she is and how pretty and nice and fun to wrestle with she is cuz im a fuckin chicken shit and i hate it gah oie so my day pretty much sucked Mels mom yelled at me for drinkin well i dont care cuz it aint gonna stop me um me Kim Terrnece And Mel watched Pumpkin head Ashes To Ashes um didnt really tlak much ne of us that is and im pretty sure im a complete and total loser oh and i got jumped on the way home fun gah my head kills ne ways viewers peace out write chall real soon (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 27th, 2007
4:18 pm	Tick Tick Times Up Nothing Left Okie its been sometimes sence i wrote on here but heres the update yall i like Kim like fuckin hard core Melody told her and she pretyt much dont belive it bummer oh well she likes Terrence so i dont stand a fuckin chance um pretty sure i dont have alot to look forward to oo cept for my very possible hangin out with Melody Kim AND Terrence tommarra omg i love those guys so muc they make me so happy its not funny too bad they dont know that but if they did they prolly wouldnt care hehe srry ive been really down latly Krystal said some pretty harsh stuff like at Britt's shes all like my mom and i were talkin out u the other dya and she said just watch u guys will get back together ur just going through a rough patch right now it hurt alot cuz i know that its been like 2 years now nd i ve kinda gave up on dating her again because i wanted to see how far the thing with me and Mel would go but i fucked that up cuz im pretty sure i screwed up by breakin up with her this year twice :( i suck well ne ways feels good to write again maybe someone will read it haha nh ill put it in my msn name that way a bunch o peoplewill read it okie well lotsa love viewers peace out Current Mood: blah Current Music: Ill Be There For You - The Rembrants(friends theme) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 14th, 2007
9:09 am	I KNEW IT i knew it i knew this was gonna happen my hellish nightmare of a life just got worse!  Im extremly tired i was up at 330ish on the phone with Krissy we got off at round 530 and alot of stuff was said  and now im doubting my relationship with Britty i mean i do love Britty alot and i wanna be with her but the Krissy thing is really hard cuz i wanna be with her to um..... im supposed to be hanging with Britt today and tommarra and Krystal on friday i hope that still works out (then hangin with krystal thing) um the mall trip was alright me and mike pretyt much wandered aroun while the girls decided to ail for awhile , we seen Melody and Scott and the hung with us and went to the movies with us 2, um best part of yesturday the movies i yelled out SHUT THE FUCK UP cuz i was getting pissed at whoever was talkin. um Melody almost broke my arm during the previews:P today is gonna blow cuz i just found out im not aloud to leave the house today yippee oh well i guess thats life um im gonna go now im tiredand depressed later days peoples Current Mood: confused Current Music: Broken Wings - Alter Bridge (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 12th, 2007
7:44 am	Not 4 You lets see alots happned in the last few days um nothing i wpould care to mention its not bad just not apporprite for the site lol later people (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 9th, 2007
6:27 pm	todays events include.... Broken Wings By Alter Bridge Fight the fight alone When the world is full of victims Dims a fading light In our souls Leave the peace alone How we all are slowly changing Dims a fading light In our souls In my opinion seeing is to know The things we hold Are always first to go And who's to say We won't end up alone [CHORUS] On broken wings I'm falling And it won't be long The skin on me is burning By the fires of the sun On skinned knees I'm bleeding And it won't be long I've got to find that meaning I'll search for so long Cry ourselves to sleep We will sleep alone forever Will you lay me down In the same place with all I love Mend the broken homes Care for them they are our brothers Save the fading light in our souls In my opinion seeing is to know What you give Will always carry you And who's to say We won't survive it too [CHORUS] Set a-free all Relying on their will To make me all that I am And all that I'll be Set a-free all Will fall between the cracks With memories of all that I am And all that I'll be [CHORUS] today i did a whole lotta nothing walked up to the plaza bought a phone card for my new cell phone :) :) but it cost me 17$ so i was pissed at that yea i opened up with music lyrics and im gonna close with music lyrics the songs are Broken Wings and Open Your Eyes by Alter Bridge um the are kinda how a feel in a sense at times but yea today was uneventful so ill catch yall later *woot woot new cell* Open Your Eyes by  Alter Bridge Looking back I clearly see What it is that's killing me Through the eyes of one I know I see a vision once let go I had it all Constantly it burdens me Hard to trust and can't believe Lost the faith and lost the love When the day is done Will they open their eyes And realize we are one On and on we stand alone Until our day has come When they open their eyes And realize we are one I love the way I feel today But how I know the sun will fade Darker days seem to be What will always live in me But still I run It's hard to walk this path alone Hard to know which way to go Will I ever save this day Will it ever change Will they open their eyes And realize we are one Still today we carry on I know our day will come When they open their eyes And realize we are one Will they open their eyes And realize we are one (its hard to walk this path alone hard to know which way to go) Will they open their eyes and realize we are one (lost the faith and lost the love when the day is done) Will they open their eyes And realize we are one (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 6th, 2007
6:14 pm	raginflabin meh kinda boed right ow talking to Mel, and little wqith Britty hes not really sayin much tho ummm today was intresting got blasted at by Krissy because of something i never said but things between me and Britty are fine we are gonna work on trust. might chill with Shades later probably going to hang here with Britty on thursday. supposed to be going to the flea market with Andrew and the boys on Saturday we wll see what happens um hopefully things will work out and ill be cool with all my friends supposed to be getting my MP3 and DS back from Krissy um nothin has been really happen latly nothing fun to talk bout yesturday was fun with the whole skip and peguin attacks and shit thats was jokes um thats bout it later peeps   :P Mel i o u an ass kickin tiger style lmao jks :P Current Mood: blah Current Music: No Transistory - Alexisonfire (Comment on this)
Friday, March 2nd, 2007
6:31 pm	im out of there i feel like a complete loser i fought with probably the only person who cared bout listening to me and now she wont even say 2 words to me im thinking she probably wont read this but i am srry for what i said ive just been kinda blah latly and i didnt feeling like saying im gonna go to the party when i probably wont even be aloud i said if britt was goin cuz id probably have a better chance of being aloud but it dont matter now i guess im gona go later people (Comment on this)
6:14 pm	fuck life i refuse to continue to live im gonna kill myself because i dont need all the drama and lies and other crap right now im having a hard enough time dealin with my issues and my friends to have any time to think wtf ever i give up totally i just fuck it i hope i die to night i no longer wanna live (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 1st, 2007
6:06 pm	blah blah blah hokly snow storm batman i had to walk from joshes place to home when i got here i felt dizzy lightheaded and sick :S anyways todays was alright me and Britty talked bout things and everythings gonna be ok um i might be hangin with josh tomarrow i unno yet today i started writing a song with Missy so thats gonna be in the makings. nothing else happend i droped kick a garbage can hurt my leg fell down hurt my leg more and my arm alomost got hit by like 3 cars and im extremly tired so ill write tommarow or later tonight if anything comes up later days (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 28th, 2007
6:31 pm	BLLLAAARRRRGGGGG!!!!!!! IM supra pissed, that stupid fuckin asshole dirt ball fucker Jordan better keep his god damn hands of Britty or ill kill him i dont fukin like him touching her!!!!! i chained three smokes im stressed i hope things work out im just genreally stressed. Krystals supposed to be comin over tommarow Ty cameover today we played ddr and talk talkin to Melody on the phone  im just gonna  cut todays short  llater peeps (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 27th, 2007
6:01 pm	Fuckin Drama Too much i tells yea this bullshit has got to stop me and Melody are cool thats good, Krystal and me are having issues with Bodom and Britty bodom and krissy are on the ropes i unno whats going on there and i feel like Britt doesnt trust me and i know that she likes me alot and she know i wont hurt her at least i thought she knew i guess she dont trust me when i tell her i wont hurt her, i wish she would tho i love her too much to hurt her, when will all the bullshit fighting end im sick of all this fuckin drama Current Mood: depressed Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Monday, February 26th, 2007
9:13 pm	Ouch Today sucked!!!!! Krystal said thigns i didnt care to hear um Melody told me she still loves me and im so freakin blah right now its not funny i broke a window with my hand today., went to matts place had a bunch of shit fall on my head played catch i know think phones are evil wanted to light tennis ball on fire and play catch. had a hilarious conversation with matt i guess im takimng of ttyl peace Current Mood: depressed Current Music: none (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 25th, 2007
8:17 pm	And.... Absoultly nothing happend today i played kingdom hearts for like 2 hours then ddr for like 5 or 6 hours (just stopped playin) um lets see waited for Britt to call all day just to find out no hang meh thats how it goes so today sucked i feel weird and blah like today um  nothin really intresting happend today bought salad ate the salad threw up after i got off the phone with Britty adn now im tryin to stay awake :P (1 Comment |Comment on this)
8:29 am	Yesturday (forgot to make an entry) I forgot to make yesturdays entry so im doing it today,  lets see um i woke up had toast and juice listened to music came on the computor, went to the dump and then toget a hair cut, came home talked to Britty she went out collecting so i wait for her to get back then bout an hour later i went and picked her up from her house, went up to reids dairy, then to my house, we were at my house till 430 i walked her home and stayed with her till she finished her second collection, then we met up with Matt and Brook ad started to head back to my place um we got there talked with Matt And Brook for a bit went inside i had to go get groceries Britt stayed at my house um came home ate dinner and like spend like 2 3 hours by myself while Britty was up stairs with my neice on the comp at around 930 - 1000 they both came downstairs i got pissed at my neice cuz she dont know when to piss the fuck off neice left me and Britt just laid on the bed her mom alled then like 20 30 minutes later her mom picked her up, i was gonna come onto the comp but i passed out on my bed and didnt really get a chance to write this so this is yesturdays events and ill write out todays events later. Peace people tty all tonight i guess Current Mood: Little Tired Current Music: Nothing At The Moment (Comment on this)
Friday, February 23rd, 2007
7:19 pm	TGIF WOOTWOOT friday baby i love fridays it means its the begining of fun lol anyways the run down of today, went to school Krystal asked were Britty was i says at home sick she said oh yea, i spaced out this morning i was like staring at the floor and i unno what happend i just lost everything i wasnt thinking or moving im pretty sure i was breathing um....OMG the elephant i love that thing its sooooo awsome i want one :P lets see played badminton in gym , learned bout sewing machines, lunch wasnt really intreting ate lunch talked to some people went to class, english sucked i didnt get to sleep like i wanted to, math was easy today.....After school lol that was jokes i got like face planted itno a woodin fence and tryed to run away from Melody but got stuck in this huge snow bank not sure who but some one pulled me ass first back into the snow .. burned my hand by accident on the stupid lighter with my can of axe oh btw it burned flesh :S..... went to Britty house we sat on the stairs talked and kissed and shit around 5pm i left went to jug city met her on the paper route walked half of it with her kissed goobye and headed home had popcorn chicken and fries for dinner and then came on the comp probably gonna have an uneventful night so ill tty peoples later peace Current Mood: Very Very Happy Current Music: Paradise City - Guns N Roses (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 22nd, 2007
8:29 pm	THURSDAY TODAY IS AWSOMENESS,went to schoool this morning and finally finsihed my math test lmao,i broke out laughin at Melodys new hair, had a snowball fight in gym class and smoked Ryan Spracket in the ass lol Neil came in smoked me in the nuts with one, then i went off to an uneventful sewing class, lunch big  snowball fight i hit like four people lol, went to english class and did these weird picture games , math class was shitty cuz i dont understand what the hell we were doing , after school i went over to matts and played guitar hero 2, came home ate dinner, went on computor an half hour later i brought the phone over to the computer desk took me klike 20 minutes to pick it up and actually dial the number, talked to Britty , asked her out she said yes  IM SO HAPPY i was dancing and singing and having a good ol time , now im gonna go eat my cinnamon bun lol later people Current Mood: Extremly Happy Current Music: God Bless The Broken Road - Rascal Flatts (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
5:28 pm	Unsure im very confused today ok this morning i went outside because it was nice out i just told everyone i hate the idoors cuz its loud and annoyin, which is tru most of the time, um still mad at Bodom i probably will be for awhile, i rip off my blisters today well more like chewed of but thats beside the ponit they are gone, um Melody kissed me today at lunch and in the hall so im confused cuz i think her and Josh got back together after school w/e  dont matter , i knew this already but Britty knows i like her which is good but i unno where its gonna go, all Krystal talks about at times is Bodom  !!! I HATE BODOM !!! im sick of hearing out Bodom the freakin leech..oh well, i wrote a poem today thats a good thing ill post it tomarrow or sometime this week um.. i had a snowball fight with Britty and walked her to her door. um i guess thats all that gone down so far today had lasugna for dinner it was good mmmm garlic bread lol. alright if anything intresting appens ill let yall know peace peoples keep it real!!:P Didn't eat lunch today btw um yea i just really wasnt in the mood for eating or anything and then all the confusingness but yea anyways keep rockin peoples peace again :P Current Mood: blah Current Music: Fallen Leaves - Billy Talent (Comment on this)